I just sat there

With uncertainties pouring, endless questions compressing my veins, I just sat there. Contemplating all the years spent and deeds done, thoughts that have been pondered upon and the ways which led me into unknown disruptions. I sat there. I sat there trying not to look back, into the times of pale and bitterness. Yet have been the sweetest, since it brought me to where I am sitting here.
Wincing often to the way I have been thinking, perceiving myself and the world, always being left to the quagmire that pulled me by my ankles into it’s core suffocation.

To find answers for all these existences I lived and died, I may never find the solution to eradicate everything from its core to fit in the ideology of perfection that this reality or people ever have to even have reciprocation with pure love, not to be haunted by any of it again. To be relieved, to be freed, to be healed.
But being tied up to all these might be the only way of experiencing life. To live is to hold all these and live with it.


To let go, yet hold on to those who value your every inch and depth, every second you lived and those coming eons after the day on which you perish from here.


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